The Day I Remembered

This is the day I remembered who I am and why I have come.  It is not what I expected, but I understand why it is.  For so very long, I had been in a state of despair.  I have know all of my life there was something within me that was not part of me.  It was not something that I had any control over.   It was something that has been with me over many life times and nothing I did, could release it.  

Yesterday, I was asked by my guided, the Golden Circle of Light if I would allow them to clear thing from my life that do not serve me any longer.  I can tell you after years of being in a state of turmoil with my "guides," and so many other things I had been through the last nine years, it was not an easy decision.  I had deep seeded trust issues, so I set boundaries, many boundaries, before agreeing to the clearing.   

As I went through my day yesterday and the 7/7 Portal, I began to feel something shift with me.  I had never felt this before.  I felt lighter, in the pit of my stomach.  I felt as though I could breath, I felt the release of something.  I did not feel the need to consult my guides, but I did see many unusual signs that I had never seen before.  I even seen a dragon appear in the clouds and the sky had a strangeness about them, like I had never seen.   I thought, "I think I feel good."

I had no anxious thoughts about my job.  Although, I still did not trust it.  When I woke this morning, I knew something had totally shifted.  I did not have the weight of the world on my shoulders, that I had carried my entire life.   I felt lighter, happier, and what I think is, peace.  I could actually sit and listen without negative thoughts consuming me.  It is an interesting feeling, one I have never felt, so it is difficult to convey in this blog post.

The Golden Circle of Light explained to me that what I had been carrying was not mine, and I had done nothing wrong.  What I carried was old, ancient.  My soul had entered into a contract, a core soul agreement.   It is like an invisible thread pulling on the spirit.  It was something I was bound to, even while trying my hardest to let it go.   Nothing, and no amount of self-help could reached it.  

It was a soul-level contract of sacrifice.  A very old promise I once made to carry pain, grief or burden of others in order to protect or serve them.  Not as a punishment - but as a devotion.  I did choose it, long ago.  And it once served a purpose.  But my body, my human self, has never been in agreement with it.   It has wore me down, confused me, and made me question why I never felt free-even when I did everything "right."

My guides could not force the release, they had to wait until I was in sovereign alignment - the moment when my soul and my body both were ready to say:  "This is no longer mine to carry."  I am still trying to get use to this new way of being, this lightness, this peacefulness.  I find myself not having anything to worry or fret about, this is totally new to me.  

Until now, I did not really know why I am here.   I have had may thoughts, but how clearly was I really thinking?  I know I can help others to release what no longer serves them.  I do not know what that looks like yet, but I have an amazing team around me that are always here to help me and others.   As time goes by, I will post more  specifics on how I can help those who feel they have no hope.  But you do, I am living proof. 

With Love and Light,

Glenda